The night where I've met you, and made another turn in my life. One that I will never forget - and yet, because memories tend to change in favor to those who hold them, I want to pen them down now. This way, I can be sure that the good will remain to be the good, and the rest I can forget in time.
I will remember the time,
when I saw your eyes for the first time, ones that are full of stories and a touch of sadness. I fell for you straight away after that;
when I first held your hand in my car on our first night, when you were in the backseat, and I was driving;
in front of the Opera House: The silence, the conversation, the cold air and the warmth of your embrace;
how you said you wanted someone to take care of you... and one that I would like to think that I've fulfilled;
when we had our first dinner together. I will never forget that recipe for the mussels;
when you've cooked for me;
when I saw you calling me 'bebe' in your text message;
when we had our first 'date' going to the Easter Show. That was the first and the last time when I saw you smiled from the inside;
when you were sleeping peacefully while I sat looking back at your face - it was at that point that I realised I could do anything for you.
It was you who gave me the courage to love again.
On the 27th May, I knew what I was walking into that night.
Before stepping into the lobby, I knew it could well be the last time you would welcome me to your place.
Little did you know that long before you told me I might have to scrup the floors in Paris if I am there with you, I know I would have done it anyway :)
And I was glad that you've given me the chance to tell you the three things I wanted to tell you that night:
That I wasn't going to look for anyone while I was away in Europe; that I've decided to come out to my parents before I turn 25 next week; that the time I spent with you, was the happiest time in my life.
So, I made an unannounced promise to myself, that
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If you wait for me then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart
If you think of me If you miss me once in awhile
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face, your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
Please say you'll be waiting
Together again
It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise If it's one that you can keep, I vow to come for you
If you wait for me and say you'll hold
A place for me in your heart.
* * *
So one day, when you turn old and fraile, and you just want some company, I will be there for you when you call for me.
I will hold your hand, just like when I did on that first night;
and I will smile for you, no matter what.
